I 'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh, everyday of my life.

2008-10-12T09:06:00.001-07:00

Hmm, somehow I think i am still alone after all.

2008-10-10T09:27:00.000-07:00

Blog ah blog, how weird is it that you can like someone that u barely even knew? But if it is infatuation, why am I thinking of her almost every moment of time? Sigh. If only someone can tell me the way to her heart. But first i need to get to know her but how? Sigh.

2008-08-26T09:54:00.000-07:00

After all, I realise that the blog has been with me through my darkest times. I remembering just deleting and redoing my entire blog just to forget stuffs. However, memories stays forever be it good or bad. Somehow, the bad seems to always outweight the good. In my darkest and saddest times, somehow my thoughts will be of my paternal grandmother, the one who groom me to be who I am now I would say. Although it has been more than 10 years, tears still stream down my cheeks whenever I think of her. I guess in my entire life, she will always be the greatest influence of my life and the person that will ever be so close to me even though I was so young then. Somehow, i am not doing justice to her as sadly to say, i am not good in studies nor am i good in sports. Come to think of it, there is really nothing much that I am good at to be honest.

I realised that everytime I am down or sad, my grandmother will always be in my mind. I remember my relatives used to have a bad opinion of me and think that I am not good in studies and all but my grandmother always believed in me. As I was young, I didnt really have a chance to repay this debt of gratitude to my grandmother which will forever be my greatest regret in my entire life.

I miss you grandma. Really badly. Sigh.

2008-08-17T04:54:00.000-07:00

Follow the notes upon the journe
At the first sight marks one's destiny
Upon the voyage comes to an end
Return lies within hasty keys.

2008-06-15T01:17:00.001-07:00

Never Gonna Give You Up - Rick Astley

Were no strangers to love
You know the rules and so do i
A full commitments what Im thinking of
You wouldnt get this from any other guy

I just wanna tell you how Im feeling
Gotta make you understand

Never gonna give you up
Never gonna let you down
Never gonna run around and desert you
Never gonna make you cry
Never gonna say goodbye
Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you

We've know each other for so long
Your hearts been aching
But youre too shy to say it
Inside we both know whats been going on
We know the game and were gonna play it

And if you ask me how Im feeling
Dont tell me youre too blind to see

Never gonna give you up
Never gonna let you down
Never gonna run around and desert you
Never gonna make you cry
Never gonna say goodbye
Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you

Give you up. give you up
Give you up, give you up
Never gonna give
Never gonna give, give you up
Never gonna give
Never gonna give, five you up

I just wanna tell you how Im feeling
Gotta make you understand

Never gonna give you up
Never gonna let you down
Never gonna run around and desert you
Never gonna make you cry
Never gonna say goodbye
Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you

2008-06-08T02:29:00.000-07:00

Hmm, 1 month of holiday has come and gone and i am still slacking as usual. Many things has happened though, maybe not many but still considered quite a lot for my boring life. My grandma 49th death memorial was today. Kinda sad to see my mum tearing. I hope time can help her get out of this pain. Hope my grandma is peaceful wherever she is now. And my exam results for Year 1 Sem 2 is out. Not that I did very well but at least I improved. I didnt fail any subject which is uber for me. And my gpa improved a little. Hopefully it can spur me on to slack lesser and do well for the last 6 sems. >.< <----Sexy eh? This is like the nicest thing I've ever seen in my life.

2008-05-10T23:57:00.001-07:00

10 years has passed and it really made me happy to know that hide is still not forgotten. In case you dunno, hide is the lead guitarist of X Japan, a leading Visual Kei band in Japan that sort of led the way for all the other bands like Luna Sea and L Arc En Ciel now. Try wikipedia if you wanna find out more. Was watching hide memorial summit and seeing so many people still singing their songs and the amount of people who attended really made me tear a little. I thought the end of X Japan was there and then when hide died but i guess Legends last forever. They are planning a world tour comeback concert of sorts. Really hope they can come by Singapore or somewhere nearby so I can attend. Its really one of those things that I must do before the end of my life. Feels kinda weird to feel so much for someone that you really know but I guess this is how you feel when you truly appreciates one's music and all that they have done. X Japan is a living legend. Fulfil my wish someone ok? :D

Harold And Kumar

2008-04-29T09:49:00.000-07:00

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

2008-04-14T08:09:00.001-07:00

What Nalph Means

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people.

Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems.

Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2008-04-11T02:51:00.000-07:00

Suppose to be studying but Noel told me about X Japan had a sort of comeback concert in Japan at Tokyo Dome that has me all worked up. I downloaded the concert as it was shown on Japanese National TV so the quality is superb. In case u dunno who is X Japan, http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/X_japan. hide, their lead guitarist died in May 2nd 1997 and they got his prodigy Sugizo from Luna Sea fame to perform. He is not that bad but the master will always be the master. They used some holograms of hide in the concert and some old footage. Although I dunno really know him but he is definite one of the defining members of X Japan in J-Rock then. Till now, his death isnt really explained. Sort of emo watching the video, seeing how his incredible talent gone with him. Then again, who am i to determine if he should have lived on or not. I hope that I do have a chance to attend their concert soon before they grow old or disband again. This is really my greatest wish ever. Anyway, i linked the first video of their concert below should you be interested. The rest can be found along. Enjoy :)

2008-04-04T03:58:00.000-07:00

=.=

2008-04-02T23:58:00.000-07:00

So here I am, hiding in Library 2 pretending to mug away my 4 hours of break. I know that I haven blog for quite sometime as there isnt really nothing interesting that happened to my life. Its pretty much the same boring thing to many. Wake up going to school, attend lectures & tutorial (awake or not), eating at canteen or just plain chilling, going home to do some (and i mean really a little) revision for test or quizzes if any or attempt to do some tutorials then its gaming gaming gaming till like 12ish then i hit the sack.
Been thinking if I should give up my gaming life for some other kind of life or even study but i guess studying isnt exactly my forte, just something i am doing to ensure a safer future i guess just for that piece of paper. School is fun i guess hanging out with friends all but exams and quizzes are a big NO. Having said that, holidays starts in like 23 days. Oh, i forget about the exams which should start say in 12 days more? It is DEAD ONCE AGAIN for me. Totally no motivation to study and totally dunno what I was doing for the past 13 weeks. Sigh. I need some divine help.
Anyway, trying to link something that my friend did for the group of us. In short, it has been us 7 always together for the past 1 or so sem since we are all fellow common engineering slackers. Streaming is coming right up and from what i see, everyone is choosing almost different stuff. Quite sad to know as i got used to this group of friends to hang out with. Hopefully we can still meet up and gather together even if its school for just lunch or what as i guess the hardest thing to maintain in life are friendships. Friends come and go but true friends last for the entire journey. So for those who have lasted the long journey of life with me, I would like to say a big thank you for being here when i needed someone :)

2008-03-06T22:00:00.000-08:00

Let's see, time flies. Its like Friday again. A few more weeks then its the exams and I shall die again. This semester is like damn chui. Last semester at least the things taught i understand and know. This semester is like totally alien and all. Anyway, thats just school. AND GUESS WHAT???!@!!!@@$#@$#^%&^ I bought 周杰伦 the concert DVD and CD. The recent 2007 concert one. 2007世界巡迴演唱会. And seriously, its OMG. I thought its just the normal stuff, i mean how much can a concert be different and seriously OMG, i am like so totally impressed. Sigh, who ask me to be so poor, cannot afford the ticket. The atmosphere must have been superb and his concert is probably the best I have ever since. Maybe i need a sugar mummy LOL. Anyway, i think my studying mood is coming back liao. Its back to the drawing board and burning more midnight oil. Anyway esther made a special remark that day that probably late cancerians are sentimental and are the most likely to portray cancerian's traits. I wonder how far is it true though i am probably a living example. Hmmm? Thoughts? LOL.

Another emo day...

2008-02-24T04:22:00.000-08:00

In this modern era, where the champions are honored and the rest never even mentioned again. This video brings a touching story. I guess in life, you should always be grateful for what you have. Take a moment of your life and thank the people around you who have played a part in sharping you to be who you are today. Thanks all for being there whenever i needed someone :)

彩虹

2008-02-18T04:48:00.001-08:00

歌手：周杰伦专辑：我很忙

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

彩虹

2008-02-18T04:43:00.000-08:00

Test

2008-02-09T04:11:00.000-08:00

Suddenly, came back to realise that my blog is after all my best friend that i will ever have to share my troubles, problems and to just say whatever I wish and want to say. Hence, it underwent another renovation, probably the third one so far. Still kinda in renovation. Need to find my music player into it and then ill start to post some crap i guess. Cheers. :D